[Spoken]
Baby I know your hurting
Right now you feel like you could never love again
Now all I ask is for a chance
To prove that I love you
From the first day
That I saw your smiling face
Honey, I knew that we would be together forever
Ooh when I asked you out
You said no but I found out
Darling that you'd been hurt
You felt that you'd never love again
I deserve a try honey just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me
Chorus
I'll never break your heart
I'lll never make you cry
I'd rather die than live without you
I'll give you all of me
Honey that's no lie (2x)
As time goes by you
Will get to know me
A little more better
Girl that's the way love goes
And I know you're afraid
To let you're feelings show
And I understand
But girl it's time to let go
I deserve a try honey
Just once
Give me a chance and I'll prove this all wrong
You walked in you were so quick to judge
But honey he's nothing like me
Darling why can't you see
Chorus (2x)
Bridge
No way, no how
I'll make you cry (2x)
Chorus

Failure is my middle name.........









Aku tetap begini
Takkan berubah kerna aku tetap aku
Dan lalu rindumu bukanlah aku

I don't wanna incur the wrath of all my friends having exams right now.. But I was really quite bored at home.... So yeaps... Dad didn't have much work to do so I asked if he could send me to school so that I can chill and meet people.. :) Ended up drinking and and eating fruits with him at cant A... And talked a lot with him bout certain stuff... I really loved sitting alone with someone and just talk... Like it just feels good to share your thoughts on certain stuff and hear other people's opinion... Especially if that other people are people who are very close to you... Yeaps.... But yeah... everyone is busy so I guess I can't force people to just sit down with me and talk.... I guess the next best thing is to spend some time alone... I really have no idea what the biggie is bout doing things alone lah.. Haha... Like watching movie alone, sitting at Starbucks alone... I feel that when you're alone.... You're the least fake and you're just yourself... Being around others, there's always a tendency to put on a facade or react to a situation the way you feel others will want you to react... Anyone who says that they are themselves around people are liars... :)

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender.....

I didn't know that the side effects could be quite bad. Let's see. I'm still giddy, my thigh suddenly hurt like hell, breathless and I'm moody. I didn't know whether I should stop so suddenly but I guessed, it is really for my own good lah.

Great things come with great sacrifices...

I'm still wondering.... Will continue to wonder... Why must I wonder?...... Never did believe in the eighth wonder..... Sighs....

Left to wonder.....










Stop thinking about it already.....

Words can be very powerful. And I've always underestimated that power. I'm not the type who's power-hungry or anything but when I speak, I tend to really talk a lot. Words just come out from this big mouth like a firing M16. And when I'm done, I can't imagine the damage that has been done.

If these words hurt, I guess I won't say a goddamn thing anymore.

Beep Beep Oh Look Now There Goes My Phone
And Once Again I'm Just Hoping Its A Text From You

I had a wonderful time last night. First, was the random meeting with the Indian man at airport. All I can say I was totally speechless and I emerged a new person after the convo with him. The best part was he didn't even know me and bestie. Just approached us, talked to us and the next thing we knew, he was already offering us some wine and offered to take us to Geylang after finding out that we're 21 year old virgins. HAHA. But I can't never forget what he said. Regarding life, love and all. And the impotant message which he tried to tell me and bestie, no matter what it is, be confident and you're your own man. I guessed he could read what my thoughts are from my eyes lah. He: "You think you're fat?" Me: "In a way?" He: "Oh please! If I were you, I would have already f****** the best babes in the world! And if I were a girl, I would choose you over him(pointed to bestie) because I think you're cute!" LOLZ. I mean yeah, I wouldn't do all that but yeah, whatever he said, really, I would never look at myself the same way again. I needed a self-esteem booster at the start of the day, I didn't know I would really get it. :)

Secondly, was the study outing with Hassa, Said, Ramadan and Matin. Hassa and Said, thanks for asking me down. Really, they're a bunch of really funny and cool guys man.

Thirdly..... yeah...... enough said. Coz words are all I have.... :)

So Maybe I'm wrong Its All In My Head
Maybe We're Afraid of Words We Both Hadn't Said

Having lotsa insecurities is a terrible disease. One can't help but wonder why one is born in sucha manner. If only, if only. But one has to be content with the way one is and the way one reacts to situations. One should not change for the sake of changing, say for the sake of saying and react for the sake of reacting.

One needs to step up tho. Coz many are looking from afar, stroking their hands in glee, eyes gleaming, waiting for one to fall flat on the ground.

One needs you.....

I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight.

Had a good break today from all the studying(padahal study sikit! :P). Went out with my lil' bro to town, had a couple of sticks, sat at Starbucks and Macs and lotsa talking bout lotsa issues. I gotta say that it's been a long time since I go out one on one with my bro and it's a good refreshing change. They always say that family comes first and I couldn't agree more. I've always thought that bro's a bit hard to talk to but today proved everything wrong. He not only talked to me more but he opened up on certain stuff which I prolly wouldn't imagine myself discussing with him. Most importantly, he became a 'friend' and I really loved that. And really thanks bro for choosing for me that shirt. :)

On another note, my revision's not going to well. I'm tryna cramp lotsa stuff and my brain isn't exactly a good storage space. But I'll try. :) There are lotsa things to look forward to after exams. These are my extrinsic motivation. :) As for my intrinsic motivation, He knows. :)

Kau ilhamku

Because maybe
You're gonna be the one who saves me?

Things have been going great for me. Revision has started(finally!) And I'm happy. The smile's back. The confidence is peaking and all I gotta do now is stay focus and give it all I got. Not only for the two damn papers that I'm sitting for next week. Bleargh! I began to appreciate the simplest things in life. And laugh and smile at the randomest of stuff. I guessed what someone told me was right, I'm the classical guy. But yeah, done with trying too hard. Now, it's back to basics. And thankfully, things are just right. :)

There are many things that I would
Like to say to you
I don't know how

Life can be unpredictable at times. There are just some things that can't be explained, perhaps only by HIM. But if I'm going through this and since I believe that HE is the one paving it for me, I guess it's okay. All and all, I feel happy and that bitter past seem like a distant memory. :)

Ain't gon' be the type to order you to sit
Loyalty and sincerity is all that I need
Got me questionin', how did it end up like this?
This heart gon' start pumping, the feelings I missed

You should've picked honesty
Then you may not have blown it

There are just some times in life where you just wished you hadn't make that decision. Even though the odds are against it, even though you know for sure that things might not turn out the way you expect them to be, you still went on and go ahead with what you planned to do. Worst still, if you had made that decision before in the past and it backfired. But I guessed these are just the characteristics of being a human being. Always ready to pick up a challenge. Always ready to go through whatever it takes. Always ready to get hurt. For the past few days, I realised that you just can't force things to go your way. You just can't. No matter how you try to topple the Eiffel Tower with you bare hands, you just can't.

The damage is done
So I guess I be leaving

I've swallowed my pride many times. MANY times. Yesterday night must be the last one. I can't afford to do it anymore. I'm not going to do it again. I just can't. I think I've reached a conclusion to that unfinished business. Sadly, it never did prosper. Nevertheless, I feel no regrets. I feel that going through the experience is good enough. Now, just have to carry on life as per normal.


Your bridges were burned, and now it's your turn

Moral of the story:
1) Change your rug. No one likes to be an over-used rug.
2) Make a stand. Coz many would love to see u fall flat on the ground despite already down on your knees.
3) Most importantly, trust your best friend.

You can think you can get free
You think you won’t need me
That you’re gonna get you somethin’ better
But you know that we’re in this forever
And you can think you can walk out
Even with your doubts
But you know that we’re in this together

You can try to push me from you
Nothing you do will keep us a part

Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape
Might as well face it, baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain’t nothin you can do about it
It’s been too long, it’s been too strong
Cause we belong here
Baby, we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
(stuck in love with each other)

Yeah
Now I can say that I would not care
If you were not there
Tell myself that I’ll be fine without ya
but I would die if I was not around ya
and I can try to convince you
I don’t need to be with you
But my only thoughts are thoughts about ya
What can I do, love is like glue
There’s no way to
Tear us a part

Cause it’s too late (too late, too late)
There’s no escape, might as well face it
Baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other (with each other)
Ain’t nothin i can do about it
It’s been too long, it’s been too strong
Yes, we belong here
Baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other (stuck with each other)
stuck in love with each other
(stuck in love with each other)

There’s nothing i’d rather do
Than to sit with you forever
Can’t think of nothing better
Than to be stuck with you

Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape
Might as well face it
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain’t nothin we can do about it
Oh yeah

Cause it’s too late, there’s no escape
Might as well face it
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Ain’t nothin I can do about it
It’s been too long, it’s been too strong
Yes, we belong here
baby, we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
(Stuck in love with each other)

Cause it’s too long, it’s been too strong
Yes we belong here
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other

Cause it’s too long, it’s been too strong
Yes we belong here
baby we’re stuck with each other
Stuck with each other
Stuck in love with each other
Stuck in love with each other

Ain’t nothin gonna stop me and you eh
Cause you know we just stuck like glue eh

Ain’t nothin we can do
We stuck in love with each other

You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start

It may just be a small lil' something. But it smacked me so hard in the face. I dunnoe. YOU brought me into the face of the Earth, YOU help guide me out from all these. Please......

I was looking at my MSN chat history and I really loved conversing with that someone. I mean, I don't know. It is as if time travels back, memories re-lived and feelings rekindled. I do not mind my status anymore. For I feel time might just change it.

Today was kinda like a mixed-emotions day for me. I was happy during Celebrate Eid and winning Raja Raya (still can't believe how I won it!:)). I felt stressed throughout the whole day thinking about my essay and tutorial due on Friday plus the test I'm having as well. And at the end of the day, I felt very sad due to problems at home.

But overall, I feel okayz. :)

There's light at the end of the tunnel. And I saw your face....

I felt this tight knot in my stomach. And it's not coz of food poisoning or anything. I'm far from being the perfect human being. And sometimes I wish things will get better.

In lecture. Boring and sleepy.

I don't really like to dwell too much on what I dream about... But last night, I had like the most random and weird dream ever.... :/ The questions playing in my mind right now is, why did I get the death sentence? And why was Hassa inside? Haha.... Sesungguhnyer..... Mimpi itu betul2 permainan syaitan... :))