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I always have a smile on my face...

....even though I get all emotional watching Hitch and 50 First dates....
....even though I'm tired going back from the 5 times per week tuition now....
....even though I had only bread for buka puasa almost everyday(DIET KAPA?! =p)
....even though....

I guess.... I'm a pretty optimistic person.... I'm emotional and all yes, but I see light in almost everything... =)But..... Oh wells.... =)

All I'm asking for is that.... I have that same smile if I were to die too.... =)

After breakfast, I just randomly sat down on the couch and switched on the tv. It's been a long while since I do that anyways. My mornings have always been filled with two things: FOC or still sleeping and then waking up to find out that I was late for FOC. Haha. But nevertheless, back to the topic, I was just switching channels when I saw that there was this show going on in HBO. It's called Trojan Wars and I had this idea that it was about the Trojan horse during the time when the Greeks tried to enter the city of Troy. And being an avid History student(p/s: I only took combined History in Sec 3! =p), I decided to tune in to that channel. Turned out to be that the show was about some teenager who wanted to go for this girl whom he liked so much and when he finally get to spend a night with her, he messed it all up and went through lots of sheesh just so he could buy himself a packet of condom called Trojan! HAHA. The show is actually full of sexual innuendo but that's besides the point because ultimately, I feel that the show is really great and sweet. You see, the guy had this best friend who is a girl and who has been discouraging him from going for this girl. As you can guess, his best friend liked him a lot and as you can guess again, the guy finally realised that his 'dream girl' was just messing around with him and it was his best friend who knew him inside out that he went for. Two points from the movie struck me a lot,"If you realise, dreams happen with your eyes closed. You need to open your eyes to see the real thing." and "A lot of stuff has been happening just because I was chasing the wrong things. When the right thing is right in front of my eyes."

Dreams. It is really a wonder how they occur. When I was younger I had lots of dreams. One of my dreams was to be a doctor and make my family proud. Hell, I even dreamed of marrying Dato' Siti Nurhaliza! HAHA. If only I had a cool moustache when I was younger, no pun intended! =p But yeah, dreams will remain dreams and while it's good while it lasts, it'll just go away once you open those eyes and the morning light gushes in, imploring you to wake up and go on with the daily routine.

When I was younger, I have been chasing here and there. Grades. True love. The thing about chasing is that you either get it and you feel tired or you don't get it and you still feel as tired. The point that I'm making here is that, sometimes, chasing just doesn't work and you got to admit that. It's when you suddenly stop in your tracks and calm down which is more important because one by one, everything falls into place. NIE. SFR <3. =) I'm not saying that no effort needs to be put in. In fact, everything needs a certain amount of effort and determination. I would say that the situation I'm in now is a result of me putting in the right amount of effort and determination towards things that I strongly believed in. Of course, before doing all that, my conscience is clear and my sincerity is true, insya Allah.

I believe that Allah has plans for everyone. To a certain extent, Allah wanted us to show how much effort and determination we have in us to go for what we chase for. But ultimately, as stated in the Quran,

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
We hold the store of every thing and we send it down in an appointed measure. (Surah al-Hijri, 15:21)

His words there is to remind us that we need to tawakkal and leave it all to Him. As He will be paving the way for all of us. He also said,

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim
We have shown man the right path. Now it is up to him to be grateful or thankless. (Surah al-Dahr, 76:3)

I'm happy with everything that I'm facing right now. Alhamdulillah, things have been going well and I really hope that things will go on to be well in the future, insya Allah. There are bound to be challenges but then again, that's life. But if we prevail, we'll not fail, insya Allah.

You are my future.... <3 <3 <3

Hey, slow it down whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 
Yeah I'm afraid whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 

There might have been a time 
When I would give myself away 
Oooh once upon a time I didn't give a damn 
But now, here we are so whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 

Just don't give up I'm workin it out 
Please don't give in, I won't let you down 
It messed me up, need a second to breathe 
Just keep coming around 
Hey, whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 
Whataya want from me 

Yeah, it's plain to see (plain to see) 
that baby you're beautiful 
And there's nothing wrong with you 
(nothing wrong with you) 
It's me, I'm a freak (yeah) 
but thanks for lovin' me 
Cause you're doing it perfectly 
(it perfectly) 

There might have been a time 
When I would let you slip away 
I wouldn't even try 
But I think you could save my life 

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out 
Please don't give in, I won't let you down 
It messed me up, need a second to breathe 
Just keep comin around 
Hey, whataya want from me (Whataya want from me) 
Whataya want from me (Whataya want from me) 

Just don't give up on me 
(uuuuuuh) I won't let you down 
No, I won't let you down 

(So hey) just don't give up 
I'm workin it out 
Please don't give in, 
I won't let you down 
It messed me up (It messed me up) 
Need a second to breathe 
Just keep coming around 
Hey, whataya want from me 

Just don't give up I'm workin' it out 
Please don't give in, i won't let you down 
It messed me up, need a second to breathe 
Just keep coming around 
Hey, whataya want from me (whataya want from me) 
whataya want from me (whataya want from me) 
whataya want from me

I really don't understand the mindset of people sometimes. But then again, not many comprehend mine as well. So yea, I'm too weak a human being to be talking about others.

NEW OUTLOOK! =) I just realised that I've used this journal for a good 9 years now. Damn. Ever since secondary 1 lah I still remember. =) Oh wells. Time really flies.

It's gonna be good days ahead! =)

The damage is done..... I'm trying my best to amend things...
Hmmmmm.......

Do you know that your love is the sweetest thing?

Mea culpa

Gotta change.......

You know you are in love when...

-You can't stop thinking about her
Instead, you are consumed by thoughts of her . She just pops into your head for no apparent reason, and you wonder if she thinks of you half as much as you think of her. You wonder what she's up to and even consider calling her (but refrain from doing so for fear of looking overeager). But it gets worse. You're out with your friends and you see something in a shop window and think about how much she would like that particular item, or you notice a poster for a show that she would love, but normally wouldn't even have looked twice at it.

-If she's the last thing on your mind before you go to sleep and the first thing on your mind when you wake up -- and you've even dreamed of her on a couple of occasions -- then you don't really even need to read on to know if you're in love (but should anyway, just to be sure).

-You care about her. There is a reason why you don't really want to know too much about the chick you had a one-night stand with: you don't love her. When you're in love with a woman, you want to know all about her: who she is, what she thinks, what makes her laugh. You truly care about her and her feelings.

-If you truly love a woman, you feel bad if she had a bad day or is upset about something. You don't try to cheer her up because you have to, but because you can't help it.

-You find her quirks charming. The fact that she carries her passport with her everywhere she goes -- just in case -- and that, when she's eating, she can't help but construct every forkful, so that it is the perfect blend of ingredients, fills you with an inexplicable feeling of happiness. She does and says things that make her different, and you like it. You can't quite put your finger on why, but it doesn't even matter. You like her just the way she is.

-You have great chemistry. You can't be in love with someone that you have no chemistry with. If you and her seem to always be on the same wavelength, and think in similar ways, that's a great sign. If you also generate enough heat to set off a five-alarm fire bell, then she is probably someone that you could fall in love with, if you aren't there already.

-You don't notice other women as much. Although you can't help noticing a beautiful woman when one walks by, when you're in love, some of them tend to slip under the radar, while others just pale in comparison to her. Furthermore, you don't seem to be flirting half as much as you used to. You are slowly realizing that she's often the only woman in the room that matters, and, for some reason, that suits you just fine.

-You love spending time with her. This one is pretty obvious but important nonetheless. You look forward to seeing her, and don't care much about what the two of you will be doing. Lately, just going for a walk with her sounds like the best way you could possibly spend an evening. Furthermore, when you're not together, you miss her and wish you were.

-You don't mind compromising sometimes. There was a time when it was your way or the highway, but, with her it's different. Not that she asks you to, but you don't mind missing a night out with the guys to be with her. And you find yourself trying to incorporate her into your plans or altering them to accomodate her.
You also find yourself not putting up a fight when she wants to go to Shakespeare in the Park. Although your friends find this very amusing, you know that deep down, they wish that they had found a love like yours.

-You start thinking about the future and she's in it. It used to be that the future with a woman meant your date on Saturday night, but, with this woman, the future seems infinite. Not only do you plan to see her this weekend, but you want to see her a year from now as well.

-When planning your next vacation, you know you want to spend it with her, and not a random beach bunny you happen to meet while you're there. And when you get an invitation to a wedding in three months from now, you ask her to be your date, without thinking that it's too far away to tell if you'll still be together.

-She says: “I want to do something together.”
What she means: We need more one-on-one time together. Why she does this: She is saying it in this roundabout way to avoid coming off as needy. What you should do: It depends how much time you are spending together. If you don’t spend much time together, you can increase it. If you already spend most of your time together, you can ignore the hint. Remember: What you do early on in the relationship will set the tone for the rest of it, so don’t feel that you have to give in to everything she demands

-You can't help but smile when you see her/him and s/he is always smiling back. You feel comfortable and secure in the relationship and really trust your partner not to hurt you; ie, there is no need for jealousy or suspicion.
There have been good times and bad times and through, or in spite of, them all you have remained together. There are no major dramas in the relationship; ie, you do not test one anothers love, engage in relationship foiling gossip or feel the need to play games.
You each do kind and thoughtful things for the other "just because" and doing them makes both people feel good. Outside pressures are few and far between; there are none or only minor issues with peers, friends, family and teachers. There is no violence in the relationship at all -- NONE! You enhance one another, neither one of you presses the other to do things that may lead to harm or that the other is opposed to doing. The things that make you different do not push you apart; ie, different religions, cultural backgrounds or personal beliefs. There is no sacrifice, only compromise. Sex or no sex: it doesn't matter, either way it isn't an issue and nobody has been pressured to do something they weren't ready to do

All checked for me =)

HELLO!

Haha. I just realised that I've not updated here for a very long time. The reason why I'm updating now is not coz I'm obliged to do so. But coz I just felt like writing. ;)

Life's pretty normal. There are definitely ups and downs. Recently received exam results aren't exactly the ones cheering me up. But, I've got happiness from elsewhere. And for some of you, you know from where. =)

June's gonna be a bit packed! Got lotsa things to look forward to. FOC, meetings in school, meetings WITH schools that I'm gonna teach in, Redang and last but definitely not least, 5th. =))) All I can say as the days go by, I'm a happy and blessed man. Allah has been kind and I'm glad just having to live each day happier than I'll ever be. And I'm glad to take things step by step, that too with a smile on my face, every single time.

I've got you. And you got me. And we will always be. Like the rainbow shining in the sky =)



=)))))

Exams bring out the best...... and worst out of you. I never knew I could reach this level of procrastination. Neither did I know that when I did panic, information seemed to flow in like waters of a river. Truth be told, I still am confident, insya Allah, that things are going to be okay.... Sometimes it is no good thinking about the negativities and what could possibly go bad..... Sometimes.... being optimistic does work...... Well, you gotta put in effort lah.... After all, without effort, there won't be motion, without motion there won't be results.....

Speaking about motion, time seems to fly faster than it should be.... It seemed like it was only yesterday that I had my 'first date' at PS..... Now, alhamdulillah, things are moving very smoothly and I've conquered the 3 month sweet barrier... =) What lies ahead of us, seem to be overwhelming, especially since nothing can be taken for granted.... But I've said many times, things are going to be ok.... They are, as long as we choose to have faith and belief in every step we take.... 'The past is history, the future is a mystery, today is a gift-that's why it's called present...' You're probably the best present I've received this year.... Alhamdulillah.... May Allah bless every step that we take from now on.... =))

I've been talking about the present and what lies ahead in the future.... But it never hurts to touch a bit on the past.... Lately, I had my past revisiting me..... It was really nice to have a good conversation with a secondary school buddy.... As well as a nice, unplanned meet-up with an army regular from my army days.... =) Given, I would love to meet up with every single person who had been present in my past... But yeah, no power to do so... Haha....

I have been happy..... Alhamdulillah..... Thank you Allah.....
... and thank YOU.... =))))
<3 <3 <3